Week 7: Day 6

It's my last day of the week. I goofed up and instead of doing Legs and Back yesterday, I did Kenpo. So, of course today was Legs and Back. I am definitely convinced this is my favorite workout. Not sure if it's because I burn over 500 calories doing it (and it isn't cardio) or because it is so many pull ups. Not that I love pull ups, but I feel  kind of cool doing them and I know they're working.

I had a good day today. I had a slow start. I think it was due to the fact my husband and I got hardly any sleep last night. Our son is not well and kept us up. When I woke up this morning I felt I slept only 3 hours. So, when I got going on my workout I was a bit sluggish, but about halfway through I could feel myself kick it in gear. The best part was on the Ab video I finally did all 25 V-up/Roll-up. I wanted to yell out to my husband, but he was on the phone, so I literally did a happy dance. And on Legs and Back day I usually can't do the ab video well because my legs are so spent.  But that wasn't the case today.

An interesting thing happened last night though. My husband Jon and I were about to go to bed, but I had flipped through a few channels and stumbled upon a P90X commercial. So, I watched for a few minutes. I saw a few of the normal success stories, people with hardly any weight to lose, but more toning needed. Or women who had zero -2 kids and looked amazing. I was starting to get mad, saying to myself, "Seriously, these people don't have my problems!" Then a gentleman came on and he was ripped, but you could tell he had quite a bit of lose skin around his midsection. He went on to say how he had lost 180 pounds. He had my full attention. He explained how the first time he did P90 he couldn't do anything. Most of the video he just walked or ran in placed. Can you imagine? Putting on this DVD and just running in place day after day? He said he began to be able to do the exercise. He lost roughly 60 pounds each time he did a round of P90. In the end he lost 180 pounds and completed P90X 5 TIMES!! I have been expecting to do this thing in 90 days, and boom, be done. But that is obviously not the case. My goal was to lose 20 pounds with this program. I am halfway through and have only lost 6 pounds. But instead of feeling discouraged and frustrated, I felt ignited. Here I was not able to do sit ups, or pull ups or only lift small amounts of weights. But I do not have a whole person to lose. I may have to do this thing twice, maybe three times but at least I know that someday, and definitely less than a year from now I will have the body I so desire. I have to keep reminding myself that this is about getting strong, healthy and being able to commit rain or shine to the well being of my body. I read, I eat well, I wash my face, brush my teeth, clean my house. I do all these things to have better health, but the one thing I keep putting on the back burner is exercise and it's time I stop saying to myself, "OK, do this until you get skinny, or you've got to lose 30 pounds in order to succeed" It can't be about that or I will continually keep slipping up. Hopefully when I feel overwhelmed I can look back at this blog and remember the bigger picture.