Introduction

My name is Kelly Miller. I am 33 years old, a wife to my amazing husband of 12 years and the mother of our 3 children. I was a track athlete in high school and held the record for the 800 meter for a few years. I have always enjoyed being outdoors hiking, swimming, biking and sometimes running, mostly walking. My family has always been active in some way or another. My Dad and sister have both run a marathon and completed triathlons. My brother was a basketball athlete in high school and is a graduate of P90X. My husband Jon is also a great athlete in tennis and basketball. He was also my fitness buddy in high school. It may not seem like it, but exercise has never been my first choice of activity and because of that right now I am not where I want to be physically.The biggest reason for this is that I have been pregnant for the last decade... I'm not kidding.

I became pregnant with our first at the age of 22. We had our 3rd when I was 25. 3 years after having our 3rd I decided to pursue the dream of being a surrogate. That dream came true just after my 29th birthday. I was able to carry a healthy 10lb baby girl for our couple. The process was so successful they asked me to do it again. So, we did and the 2nd pregnancy was just 16 months later and we conceived twins. I carried the twins to the 32nd week and the babies totaled 10 lbs. Because they were early and baby B was sideways, I had a Cesarean Section. After my first surrogate baby I got a trainer and got in the gym and lost 15 lbs and looked and felt great. With the twin pregnancy I gained a healthy 28 lbs but it's been almost 2 years since they're birth and I can't seem to get my stomach to not look 4 months pregnant, or to get these 30 lbs off of me. I have even gained 8 lbs from when I gave birth to them. So at this moment I am the heaviest I've ever been in my life outside of being pregnant.

A year ago, almost to date, my sister and I were able to do a Sprint Triathlon. I hadn't exercised once since the 5th month of carrying the twins. It took me a full 6 months after the birth to feel myself. At that point in January I started the training and I remember having a panic attack outside my in laws house while trying to run for 30 minutes. I didn't know how in 3 months I was going to be ready to swim a 1/4 mile, bike 15 miles and run a 6K. When the time came for the triathlon I did finish under 2 hours and during the process I lost 13 lbs. I was so relieved. I didn't feel broken anymore. But as soon as the pressure was off from the triathlon, I completely stopped. I felt frustrated because I wasn't strong. I wanted to lift weights but I didn't know where to start and I was quickly gaining the weight back and felt helpless in the process.

The purpose of this blog is two fold. I want to use this as a tool for women out there who have had children or who are extremely out of shape and see that it can be done. The other part is that by doing this blog, for me, the fear of failing will be greater than actually quitting. To know that once I begin and post this blog then I have no choice but to finish through. I guess you could call it attention, but it really it is more along the lines of accountability. If I have only myself to answer to then I will think of a million excuses. But if I have a dozen or so friends to answer to, then the heat gets turned on.

This is where my story stops and P90X comes in. Now that you are familiar with my story, who I am and how I got here I hope you will enjoy reading my journey.